[Esc] reality

OUTTAKES Type O Negative ASMR

Ok I've been dying to show you the outtakes but wanted to give you a chance to catch up on the video first. Did you like it? Now it's time to see what went wrong in the making! 

Type O Negative ASMR

When posing  with my pop for the thumbnail, my exact thought process was: What's the most ironic ridiculous unrelated brand plug sellout pose I can- yup. This. 

My feelings in a nutshell: Excited af to publish my baby, a little bummed out that it's not a perfect baby XD

Well...

July LiveChat

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Stereo VS Condenser Mic - Zoom H6

Finally got around to making this - it's a bit of a mess I apologize. I recorded a bunch of different sounds and ASMR triggers with these two microphones and their respective windscreens. (The foam one belongs to the stereo mic, the fuzzy one to the condenser mic - or, according to my fiance, hat...

Type O Negative ASMR - Sneak Peek

This one's coming out for realsssss. I've been working on this since Sunday and I quite like everything so far. The upcoming video is inspired by my current album obsession. 

What can I tell you about it that you migh...

Outtakes - Party for Two - Cancer

I cut out all the terrible singing. I just wasn't any good that day XD Enjoy

★Party For Two★ #12

The last chapter, Cancer. I look back at this journey with a sentimental sense of accomplishment. Mark this as the first time I've finished something I started. It seems like now, everything is possible. I thank you all for nudging me to finish the series as the last 5% of a project take up about...

⛥July Download⛥

I almost forgot there was a video last month. Well there you go! I'm working my way up back to 4-6 so you can actually vote. I hope you like this mp3 version of the Heart Healing <3

Outtakes - ★Party For Two★ #11

Murphy's Law clearly applies to video creation.  

Happy to be back making more regular content! Excuse my ADHD

★Party For Two★ #11

Capricorn won with exactly two more votes than Cancer so here it is. 

But I filmed Cancer, too, over the weekend, so it won't be long before this series is finally finished and we all can move on tho the next gen [Esc] reality. 

Do these just come out shorter every time? Yea...

starting over

"I have not failed. I've just found 10,000 ways that won't work." - Thomas A. Edison

Me, too, man. I can't believe I've actually come to defend my perfectionism but I truly don't think it's that big of a deal. Ha, see what I did there? No, I don't think my standards are the probl...

⛥June Q&A⛥

The spam continues! I just got done running errands and hand washing my laundry which is currently soaking in a tub of scalding hot water to remove the detergent and by now my neighbor's brats are awake and stomping around like the tiny abominations they are so I'm doing this until exhaustion kic...

metal asmr covers

"Your patrons want to hear from you" - how would you know that, Patreon?! Anywaysssss I made you some songsssssssss. Happy July! This is me announcing the start of the month spam. I hope you like them. Please validate my feelings with a <3 if you do otherwise I'm gonna assume you don't care an...

At Night - Sneak Peek

I'm onto my next project and, thankfully, more energetic than I have been since the last spell I cast. For some reason, that one just drained the life right out of me and had me researching possible underlying health conditions that may have contributed to the extreme fatigue I was feeling. Now I...

⛥June Live Chat⛥

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Summer Solstice Vlog 2019

What do you know, the Mega tier video is not late this month! I'm getting better at this!

I filmed that particular day in my life because summer solstice is kind of a special occasion and if I weren't tied up by depression I'd probably have done a ritual. But I did the best...

Heart Healing Outtakes

I hope this made you laugh. <3 for the half assed editing job I had 2 hours of footage ok I did my best XD

Heart Healing with Diamond & Rose Quartz

I think the healing is working because while proofreading it forced me to look at my resistance and everything I hate about myself. Putting all that aside, however overpowering my distaste for my "experimental" makeup and "never big enough even when curly" hair, I can honestly say I did not half-...

Crystal Healing Sneak Peek

Meow! So I'm working on some ASMR again and recently I had a breakthrough with a year old (?) conundrum. 

After my last crystal healing video, I let you guys vote on which crystals I'm gonna end up usin...

⛥May Extras⛥

Points for Ally! I finally finished editing this vlog from last month. The overwhelming majority of you wanted to see a Vlog with Jack so I decided filming us actually going somewhere (sightseeing) would probably be the most fun thing for you to watch. There are more Vlogs and in the June poll yo...

pain and betrayal

[This post is intended purely for self-expression]

We interrupt the panic-laced daily routine of thinking I should be doing something more important for our regular dose of emotional distress triggered by something I wish I'd never scratched the surface of but here we are. 

A dee...

we eat the pulverized corpses of jimini cricket and his friends

Just wanted to post a little something to make you laugh. I've spent the day editing and having anxiety and eventually my desire to make you laugh outweighed my anxiety about posting my face. Sorry about the clickbait but I couldn't resist being edgy as shit with the title. 

Have you e...

love on hold

I just had to let go the person who makes my life worth living. 

This past month was the best thing that could have happened to me and my mental health. Because we were dead set on getting married soon, before we were told in the second week of May by senator whoeverthefuck that after ...

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⛥May Q&A⛥

Hola! How are you all doing? It's a beautiful sunny day here in Bavaria following weeks of relentless rain and floods. My sweet Jack and I are keeping cool in  my living room with homemade caipirinhas (my mint plant looked a little too sad to throw in a mojito - I'm sure it would help to put...

⛥May Live Chat⛥

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Why You're Annoying Based On Your Sun Sign

Just following up on What I Envy About The Zodiac Signs because at least one person requested it. I remember reading it at least once. Note my super hot star guest who so kindly agreed to sit there and be pretty and laugh at my jokes. I hope you find this entertaining and don't hate me if you see...

⛥May Download⛥

Winner by default. I hope you enjoy my singing. Sorry there haven't been more uploads. On the bright side, my apartment is clean now and my favorite person ever is living here for a month. There may be an ASMR star guest in future videos =D

mocoroons

This morning, I felt like having a treat. And like so often when I want a treat, I surveyed the kitchen for ingredients I can use to make literally anything healthier than a bag of chocolate easter eggs. Admittedly, I was envious of Jack's donuts that he said he was going to get while running err...

All About Self-Care

Read after watching. 

Thank you all for voting for this video as the April bonus video! This topic is near and dear to my heart because of my personal struggle with taking (adequate) care of myself. In transparency I must admit that it took me a very long ti...