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My mental health got in the way of me working on something else yesterday so I made this funny astrology trash video.
I have concluded that yes, my face indeed looks atrocious without makeup. But I'm glad I tried it anyway.
Always remember that there's always a quality you...
2019-04-28 21:04:03 +0000 UTC View Post
Thanks to everyone who could make it! I enjoyed sharing this blessing with you. I will work out the timestamps for those of you who couldn't be here live some time this week so you can still get my smoke cleansing, crystal energizing and channeled Beltane Blessing. I hope you all will ben...
2019-04-27 14:18:13 +0000 UTC View PostAt long last, recovered from the previous BTS post, fueled by caffeine and protein bars (really helps with ADHD!) and still fidgeting in my chair because sitting down for a long time makes my body temperature d...
2019-04-26 19:03:58 +0000 UTC View Post
One of my favorite photos from spring.
Truth be told, I had to scroll an absurd amount, thinking "When even was my last BTS post?" ... It was a few months ago, it turns out. I've been busy doing my thing and creating stuff - nonetheless, I finally managed to title this post...
2019-04-26 15:43:24 +0000 UTC View Post
THAT FUCKING SINGING VIDEO.
I've been trying to get this video made for just about all of last month. This is by far the most time and energy I've spent on any video ever, because as I attempted to sing all these songs over and over, I realized how much I truly suck at singing all the...
2019-04-11 22:13:36 +0000 UTC View Post
THIS IS WHAT I WAS TALKING ABOUT!!!!!!!!
This video contains my heart and soul, my tears and sweat, the best of the best of all that I have to give. This video is my essence, my purpose and my pride. But it is so much more than that.
It's an ultra cozy super s...
2019-04-05 18:33:36 +0000 UTC View PostIt's time to be productive so I can tell myself I've accomplished something after randomly working up a past trauma an hour ago! I'm so ready for life to go well again. So let's roll out your questions to make me feel better. I always look forward to these because you guys just ask such brilliant...
2019-03-28 22:04:07 +0000 UTC View Post
You wanted a vlog - you get a vlog! Unfortunately, so far, this has been the only video I've been able to make this month. But better than nothing, I think. Trust me when I say I've been working my ass off... It just hasn't produced anything worth publishing yet but I'm fighting ...
2019-03-26 20:04:35 +0000 UTC View PostJust wanted to ask you all a question before I go to sleep - yes, this is an essay question. If you have a minute to write a comment I would really appreciate it. What is your favorite ASMR trigger used in any spa roleplay ever? Could be a sound, visual trigger, atmospheric trigg...
2019-03-15 05:44:48 +0000 UTC View Post
Nothing to see here, just catching up with last month's rewards so I can get on with stuff. I hope you approve of your choice for last month's bonus video! The usual spam will follow shortly.
2019-03-12 15:25:37 +0000 UTC View PostHow are you all doing? I hope things have been improving for you and you're getting to enjoy life a little. I've been mostly ok with a good balance of managing meltdowns and little by little pushing myself to be productive. Today I challenged myself to do stuff for 4 hours straight and I rolled o...
2019-02-24 22:13:43 +0000 UTC View Post
My ancestral line will not continue. I'm not sure if I made myself clear enough or not, but I don't want to have children under any circumstances and not for anything in the world. It just occurred to me that this means I am ending my personal ancestral line. It is my decision. I like to think of...
2019-02-13 02:43:44 +0000 UTC View Post
Last week, I made you a vlog because I couldn't function enough to take on more projects. And then it took me forever to edit because I couldn't function enough to concentrate. This month, there are options again! But ...
2019-02-03 01:04:51 +0000 UTC View PostExcuse me, excuse me, rewards from two months coming through! How are you all doing? I must admit it was a really rough start to the year and I can only hope that this universal funk subsides soon while I try my hardest to melt the ice off of my motivation to live. I feel like I'm blowing at a gl...
2019-02-01 23:06:49 +0000 UTC View Post
Excuse me, excuse me, rewards from two months coming through!
Mp3 downloads from December and January - all of them. Enjoy!
2019-02-01 21:28:50 +0000 UTC View Post
How were you affected by the Super Blood Wolf Moon a few days ago?
I'm asking how and not if because I hear from everywhere that damn near everyone has been hit really hard. And I'm no different.
I've been living the past two weeks on the verge of a nervous brea...
2019-01-24 00:58:39 +0000 UTC View Post
❥ Louder Music ❥ No Music
I've been working on this thing for you guys. Over the past week I've just been overwhelmed b...
2019-01-13 08:02:59 +0000 UTC View Post
Two days ago, I had an emotional meltdown. But it was unlike any other because of what it did to me. I'm used to being triggered, crying and being overwhelmed by emotion to the point of plain passing out. It's everything besides that which changed who I am and how I view things.
I'm s...
2019-01-06 20:17:55 +0000 UTC View PostHappy new year. I'm starting to wonder about something - if a patron deletes their pledge, are their comments on my posts automatically deleted? Because I've been remembering questions I've read that I prepared to answer in my head but I'm not sure if I ever got around to answering them. Am I liv...
2019-01-01 02:10:46 +0000 UTC View Post
Hey everyone, I hope your Holidays went well. I just wanted to give a long awaited update and let you in on my mind a little bit.
So here we go I guess... I've been struggling. At this point I can pretty safely say that depression has a tight grip on me. I've found it diffi...
2018-12-30 13:58:52 +0000 UTC View Post
Thank you all for joining! I hope you had a good time. Looking forward to seeing you all in January!
2018-12-16 01:15:42 +0000 UTC View Post
I've been working on stuff. Unfortunately, I don't have anything to show for myself yet, because good things take a lot of work. I'm in this weird phase where I'm making slow progress on multiple videos because I start doing one thing, notice all the things I hate about it, require stuff to fix t...
2018-12-15 20:37:37 +0000 UTC View Post
[Now back to the previous version because youtube doesn't like the fix]
In this long anticipated video I am reading the Libra chapter! Go Libra! It's been a long time coming but you know better than anyone what they say about being fashionably late. It took a while beca...
2018-12-12 03:05:04 +0000 UTC View Post
I got a lot of shopping done today. Since I had anticipated being ♪ Over the hills and far away ♪ a few months ago, I thought the next cat food donation from all the tier rewards Super and up was going to be delivered to a local shelter in Missouri. Blame the government, because they...
2018-12-11 17:36:30 +0000 UTC View Post
My hair is in braids and just won't dry
The next video will be ready in three days time
Turns out I'm exhausted, I thought I was fine
The feeling I get is just Do or Die
I've been on a diet to make myself slim
Caffeine is required to not quit on a whim
Cheat days are few and my mood...
For an upcoming video, I wanted to ask you what your favorite trigger words are. The ones that really make you tingle. If you could take a moment to write a comment that would really help me out. I'm speicifically looking for positive adjectives due to the theme of the video. Like, I know people ten...
2018-12-07 02:37:13 +0000 UTC View Post
I had a long day and made you all a little zodiac video. Recent events had me thinking about complaints that each of the zodiac signs might have. I hope you enjoy the video, watch it first before reading the rest of the post :)
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2018-12-04 21:58:50 +0000 UTC View Post
Downloads, anyone? Ok, ok, I promise you'll get to vote again once I make more than two legit videos a month. I made 3 in November, but two were kind of the same one, so just take them please.
2018-12-02 19:53:51 +0000 UTC View Post
