Back in Action

I was going to do this with a chapter attached, but then I realized that would make things a little extra complicated with what I'm trying to do. I also planned to make this pretty simple, but then I realized that some people might want to read the full things, so I'll put the whole thing with a big banner for the tldr people.

To cut right into it, depression sucks. But at the end of the day, I can't let it be some kind of crutch or blockage that keeps me from progressing with both myself and the things I want to do. A bunch of stuff happened all at once when I decided to take a short break, and what I thought was going to be a little period of not doing anything too stressful turned into a big spiral of not great that has lead to me not getting any writing done until today! Well, I got some little bits and pieces done here and there, but today was the first time I really got anything substantial done. 

To be frank, I don't have a great opinion of myself. My self esteem is pretty crappy. So it's very easy for me to just assume that other people don't like me or what I produce, becuse my first insitnctive thoughts about myself aren't great. Of course, that's pretty dumb. I'm not the best writer in the world by any means, but when I actually look at myself with any level of realism, I'm doing pretty good. But when I'm depressed it's pretty easy to tell myself that no one wants to read what I produce and thus it doesn't really matter what I do or don't put out. Which is bullshit. Even if no one likes it, or at least no one who sees it likes it, I still need to put it out there because I like writing it.

This is actually going to be a little shorter than I thought it would when I started typng just now, because I've been going back and forth between a long post about all the stuff I've been thinking about with my writing and just keeping it short and sweet. I guess I'll end this portion here and call it somewhere in the middle of those two.

***************Plans and Writing Stuff Below!************

So short version, as it currently stands I'm not going to be putting a specific schedule in place. I need to get into the position where getting an amount of writing done over whatever time period becomes a habit and a guarantee before I start setting a schedule. That being said, I'm going to aim for one chapter a week to start with, and if I don't meet that goal perfectly, I'm not going to beat myself up over it.

I'm also going to be turning off payments here on Patreon for the next two months minimum. I know that two months isn't the same amount of time that I was gone, which is why I'm saying minimum. We'll see where things stand when we reach the beginning of April.

Speakingof Patreon things, I'm going to be looking at the tiers I have right now and seeing if they need changes/how I can change them, so look forward to a poll on that in the future. 

Quick Edit: I also just switched the page to "Subscription" mode or whatever? Now things should be billed on the same day that you originally subscribed the first time, at least once billing goes live again. Apparently some people might get charged twice in one month the first month they subscribe the other way? Not sure how that's possible, but this way is supposed to stop that.

Finally, for those of you are here as Patrons as I'm posting this, thanks for sticking around, for whatever reason you did. The fact that anyone is still here after I dropped off ot the face of the Earth like I did is really comforting and encouraging. Thanks.

Oh! And before I forget (I'm typing this as I think about it so I guess this is the actual 'Finally') I'm going to start looking into getting the first book professionally edited and then realeased, since the first push I did for that stalled really hard. I'll keep everyone updated on that as things get closer and closer, and there'll eventually be a free ebook copy posted for Patrons once that's a real thing.

Thanks again everyone, and I'm looking forward to writing more for y'all to read.

Further Edit: I just went and did the pause and apparently it'll literally start today and will go one full month, till Feb 19th. I didn't know it worked like that, and I think it's kind of cool. Anyway, just keeping y'all in the loop.