親は数年前に離婚・・。私が苦しい生活をおくっていなければ、こんな狭く閉鎖的な空間で、こんな最悪な事はしていない・・。逆にこんな事をすることで生きて行けていると言っても過言ではない・・。惨めな気持ちはもうとうに捨てたのだ・・。 My parents divorced a few years ago. If I hadn't had such a difficult life, I wouldn't be doing such terrible things in such a small, closed space. It's no exaggeration to say that I'm able to survive by doing such things. I've long since let go of that feeling of misery.