Nerf this! ❤️

do I owe you an explanation of how I function? No, but I want to provide it. y’all keep seeing the tailored version of me through here:

but how I function on a daily basis is less organized/planned.

I have personality of an INFJ, a short attention span, and the mixture of slightly above average and mediocre IQs, all constantly interacting with the constant existentialism within me.

By nature I am extremely chaotic when it comes to the organization of my thoughts. Often times I feel as if I have no control over it, but I embrace it anyway. I love people that also have it, it makes me feel like I’m not alone, which is something I struggle with a lot. I am around people a lot and I love diversity but I’m still lonely somehow. There are people that I think I’m a genius, and people that think I’m an idiot. The truth is, I’m the average of both, which is Average.

So many people on here aren’t aware of that. It’s not like I’m put on a pedestal, it’s more like they all see this tailored version of me and I feel the need to let you all know that it isn’t accurate. I have a persona online that shows off and magnifies the parts of me that I like, The full version of me, the bad, the good, the vulnerable. All of it, is something that I want you all to keep in mind: exists.

I want to show small parts of myself on here that I don’t usually show off, one of those parts is this. I write a lot. I’m not good at grammar but I have a lot of ideas and thoughts that are so overwhelming that I used to separate myself from everyone and cry. These thoughts were overwhelming, deep and so heavy. I knew most people wouldn’t want that. I’m not good at small talk, or socializing. I keep shutting people out, but I’m improving myself by going out of my way to interact with people more and I’ve found a way to cope with my overwhelming thoughts by writing a book. I’ve been working on it for 3 years now.

That’s all I wanted to share, maybe I’ll start sharing more in the future.

Thank you for keeping me motivated in life, social media can be really negative but also positive, it has helped me discover myself, express myself and keep me motivated.

I love you guys, I really wouldn’t be in this position of self improvement without you all. You have all helped keep me motivated so much and it means the world. As someone that’s always struggled to fit in, I think I’m finally start to get there thanks to you all.

Thank you