CHANGE OF PLANS LOL

Ok. I have no idea if anyone reads these or even cares, but as I was walking home from work I had a… I’m not sure how to describe it, but it’s something that I (and other writers, I’m sure) experience from time to time. It’s like an epiphany, a lightning bolt of inspiration, an understanding—where pieces of your story suddenly fit and make sense and work. It’s a real rush! With that said LOL…

I’ve been writing this novel called Brawling Love for, fuck, 12 or 13 years now, maybe longer??? I don’t know. Point is, it’s been a major struggle. I have started and stopped and restarted from scratch over and over again, and for some reason Tom’s story just couldn’t be told. I think it was a combination of things that prevented me from finishing. I’d get so far too—300 pages in and then one character would do something and derail the whole thing. Or my writing would improve and the previous chapters wouldn’t suffice. Etcetera. Super annoying, but that’s writing.

Tonight I finally figured out how to tell Tom’s story, and I’m fucking elated (and relieved lol). That being said. I have no idea what’s gonna happen to this patreon or TToT. Part of me wants to share Brawling, but with this new direction it’s now become a very personal story that I don’t know if I feel comfortable sharing in a raw, draft format. Brawling is going to be my main focus from now on, now that I can sit down and go balls deep and get it written, but I’m going to try to chip away at TToT too, because I love it and it’s gotten me through some dark times. It’s my comfort/passion project and I believe in it and I just wanna keep at it. But Brawling is my neglected baby and I need to get it out of my system. I think it’ll also be cathartic for me.

If you stick around, dope. I’ll be pausing patreon when I can’t update. If you peace out, thank you for the support and godspeed pilgrim 🫡