A Personal Post ❤️

I wasn’t sure if I should share this here, but everyone who’s part of our Patreon fam honestly feels like a friend to me and your support of my channel over the years has meant so much that I want to be as open with you guys as possible❤️

This week has been a tough one for me so I’ve been posting less online, I wanted to share a bit of what I’ve been away doing behind the scenes.

*Content warning* I’ll be discussing suicide so if you aren’t comfortable with that topic please don’t continue to read this post🙏🏻

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I often get asked how I deal with homesickness and being away from my family and friends overseas, but honestly it’s never been an issue for me. I’ve always been quite independent and my family understands that. We talk through email and chat daily and I never feel like I’m far away from them. I’m also lucky that I’ve been blessed with friends who will always be there no matter how far apart we are, or how little we are able to keep in touch with each other. But for one of the first times since moving overseas, this week has been really tough.

One of my best friends is still living in Canada, we were really close growing up and spent nearly every day together since we were 7. We’ve been friends ever since❤️ She sent me a goodbye letter last week (via online chat) and told me she’d taken a whole bottle of her prescription medicine. She lives alone and I don’t know anyone in the area to contact, so I panicked and racked my brain for ways I could help being all the way here in Japan. I downloaded Skype so I could call my Mom, and I got her to write down my friend’s address and call paramedics so they could send an ambulance to her house. Thank god my Mom was there to help and the paramedics got to her house on time. I was able to talk to the police on the phone and explain the situation. She was taken to the hospital and recovered safely and was sent home. But obviously that doesn’t mean everything is okay now, it’s going to be a long road to mental recovery. I feel so hopeless being so far away and not even being able to fly over and visit her because of the pandemic :( I’m trying my best to do everything I can to be a good friend to her. It’s been a bit tough balancing my private life and my YouTube channel so if I’m a little quieter than usual that is why. But I’m determined to keep posting fun videos and will try my best💪🏻

I really want to say thank you to all of you for always leaving nice comments and letting me know you enjoy my videos, it really gives me the motivation to keep creating because I’m so glad I can make videos that might help cheer someone up, or make them feel less lonely, or at least just entertain you for a little while or teach you something about Japan. If my videos help just one person it’s totally worth posting them. Love you guys ❤️