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ALMOST 275

Added 2020-09-11 20:55:35 +0000 UTC

I weighed in a couple nights ago at 274.8 which means the next big milestone is just around the corner. I've been working on my tan as well as the belly so the farmer's tan should be fading somewhat.

The body dysmorphia is strong as ever since I still feel unimpressively small. I'm just focusing on getting the calories in letting the growth handle it from there. The gym has been going well and a got a nice comment from a younger guy. He and his girlfriend are there a lot of times when I go and he came up to me and asked what it's like being the biggest guy in the gym every time I walk through the doors. It's hard to answer since I don't feel big though, it's like I distrust or just don't believe the numbers on the scale. I think what doesn't help are the guys that I really like their size are just so much bigger than I am. The bench press is up to 5 sets of 5 at 315 though! I haven't been putting up numbers like that in forever. I've heard good things for EatMor appetite stimulant so I ordered that today to try as well. I ran out of the Ovrdrive appetite stimulants so I thought I'd try a new one and see which works better for me.

Anyway, we've had Adam's family in town for the past week but things return to normal on Sunday so I can go back to pigging out in the kitchen in my underwear again. It's the simple things you miss...