Record of a fool's life

For the first time in two months, I went out properly. Three hours by train.

Excited about a real open world, I enjoyed the annoying crowds.

Ate some ramen noodles.

I bought some clothes at my usual store. I found a checkered shirt that almost looks black. Upon closer inspection, it had orange and blue lines, which gave it a complex, almost green color. Along with it I bought a burnt umber T-shirt.

It was almost black all over, but if you look closely, you can see a slight difference in hue.

I liked my outfit that way.

Until recently, I had no interest in fashion and wore only black clothes.

But I learned from Skyrim, BotW and Armored Core.

Changing colors is fun.

Whether it makes sense or not, the illusion is the truth.

I put clothes on in the fitting room, check them out, and head to the checkout with them on.

I learned how to buy equipment through games.

On the train ride home, I read a book. "The Psychology of Form and Image".

There was a reference to language and symbols being a kind of illusion.

I had the pleasure of unexpectedly connecting knowledge with knowledge.

Suddenly I got off at an unknown station and spent an hour in front of the station.

A familiar scene in an unfamiliar city. There, I find the interest of recognition.

I sat on a bench and smirked as I read the comments of admiration posted on my pixel art.

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I've had a lot of pessimism since I got back.

I found no movie reviews that I could relate to.

I accidentally discovered that I was blocked by a stranger.

I haven't received a reply to an email I wrote in a flippant manner.

I haven't made any progress on my painting.

Today's diary was actually intended to be a “diary of pessimism” in which I wrote about them.

But after I finished writing, I realized. It is all pessimism because I know happiness.

Sadness is caused by the fall from happiness.

But I had completely forgotten about happiness, which is the cause of sadness.

It's so silly. How many happy times I had spent until then!

So silly that I put it on record here.