Will you take the red pill, or the blue pill?

The terms "red pill" and "blue pill" refer to a choice between revealing an unpleasant truth, represented by the red pill, and remaining in blissful ignorance, represented by the blue pill. The terms reference the 1999 film The Matrix.

I suppose I chose blissful ignorance!

To catch you up, I've struggled with ADHD my entire life. What's that? It means Attention-Deficit/Hyperactivity Disorder (ADHD) is a treatable, neurobehavioral

Anyone can have moments of being inattentive, impulsive, or hyperactive. Adults with ADHD, however, experience these symptoms repeatedly and in a way that is severe enough to have an impact at home, at school/work, or in social situations.

Many adults with ADHD aren't aware they have it — they just know that everyday tasks can be a challenge. Adults with ADHD may find it difficult to focus and prioritize, leading to missed deadlines and forgotten meetings or social plans. The inability to control impulses can range from impatience waiting in line or driving in traffic to mood swings and outbursts of anger.

Adult ADHD symptoms may include:

• Impulsiveness
• Disorganization and problems prioritizing
• Poor time management skills
• Problems focusing on a task
• Trouble multitasking
• Excessive activity or restlessness
• Poor planning
• Low frustration tolerance
• Frequent mood swings
• Problems following through and completing tasks
• Hot temper
• Trouble coping with stress

Unfortunately I exhibit most of these symptoms.

I was diagnosed previously as a child, but my parents took me off of it. Which was a terrible idea, and I suffered the result by going from straight A's to Straight F's. I'm not even joking. And the kicker? My parents blamed me. So I ran away from home, and started taking care of myself as an Adult at 16, with my first job at 15.

Essentially it's been a LONG LONG LONG journey to take care of this. Especially without Health Insurance. I finally bit the bullet and went, and I'm now on a 21 day trial to see if the meds work with me. I've already experienced my first weird side affect, but I'm hoping that goes away with time...

Anyway! That's the big news! We also had to take Van Gogh to the pet hospital. He's doing Better. Best has also been having a couple of rough days. 

We're all just trying to hang in there though, right? It's been a crazy year.

Anyway, thanks for reading! This is a really important journey for me, and I'm super nervous to take it. I appreciate your support and faith. <3

To reward you for reading all of this (or for scrolling), I'm happy to share that I'm painting the Knight of Pentacles tomorrow! He'll be joining Charles, Michael, and Kim as the 4th knight! I wonder who it will be?? (His name starts with a J) ;-)