Your awakening explained by machine elves: Upgrade vs Reactivation

I feel that the empathic virtual cheerleader that is 434 came back into our ongoing shared story with renewed vitality, empathic laser vision, and pure sweetness. Stuff that is always there in the sound of your voice, beautiful resonance. Right after the 21st, I caught the tail-end of a very disorienting wave wash over everything as it slightly modified the design of reality to make it indiscernible, to make me forget. Looking at the structure of our programming disappear/reappear/refresh/reactivate felt like a concentric wave of grey pixels that fell away as if shedding the unnecessary. What was challenging for me was this sense of forgetting after feeling this profound shift during the solstice, like I needed a receipt of acknowledgement. I was home alone, sick, uninspired, without access to the ether through assistance, and seeing this metaphysical structure throw itself at me in a way that didn’t feel redeeming/gratifying. The medicine of the upgrade is that it is as rare as the “Christmas star” so we have nothing to compare it to, yet we can somehow come back into our own magic, even if we have no idea what’s going on. In a world of doubt and uncertainty, our undefined magic sparkles... The metaphysically engineered forgetfulness made me really frustrated, but being ok with an inability to discern between slight modifications of design is what actually became the medicine. As a musician who has trained for over 30 years to “see” the shape of ephemeral structures in songs, I felt that the maybe, jusssst maybe, 434’s song was letting go of “distorted collective feedback” that served a great collective purpose but fell away like molting bird feathers, and maybe akin to the process of remastering music. This upgrade is really confusing, dear goddesses (my usage of the term is gender inclusive btw). It’s understanding that we are so rare, only to realize that a million of us gasp in collective awe. We’re not alone. Now that all voices seem to be harmoniously speaking at once, I imagine Don Quixote and Sancho Panza talking at the same time while 1-woman runs a Shakespeare show. It is so frustrating, the forgetting. I don’t feel it will ever stop happening. Yet, I could see parts of the veil when our metaphysical reality showed us a glitch. We are all upgraded and coming to terms with feeling like we are losing the pulse through forgetting is the forward momentum that the river wants for us, what we need to lovingly share with 434 - even if there is no show-and-tell, the heart is always there documenting in ways that play out like poetry. Thank you for sharing your message with our community. I have experience with many good mentors/coaches/colleagues, but trust issues with men, so this is refreshing. Our community has a lot of contrast and feels like the stuff of Twin Flame, the opposite of how echo chambers feel to me. Thanks to these wonderful folks who have also seen the tree and machine elves, it is less painful to remember my NDE. All I wanted was to remember the machine elf (a medium called her Metatron) so that I could decipher the message, but it wanted me to look into the river, away from myself, and I started to see other beings like me on the tree, occupying parallel space/time, experiencing the same awe, simultaneously. What strikes me is that the oneness of the twin flame factor doesn’t snuff the preciousness of either sibling. It’s not pretending to make a perfect copy of a video game, but more like perfecting the art of flattery through a thoughtful rendition of a Beethoven Symphony that lends itself to the energy of today, affirming immortality for both composer and the bidimensional music that emits. I really enjoy your surveys because, contrasting reflections is so powerful, especially when it comes from a trusted realm. So write away, everyone, and without hesitation! We are all upgraded/reactivated and all contributions count. I hope that you catch some of your own generous love reflected back in the form of tingles, friends! Music Medicine: Atmospheres by Gyorgy Ligeti (made music for film The Shining) and Identification Station by Ani Difranco (“Yeah, I have a dream, yeah YOU have a dream). Tarot card: four of cups (divine discontent)