Rowson Photography

Me in Germany by Owen Filion

Added 2021-04-03 23:43:52 +0000 UTC

Today I got a message from my ex husband in Germany -

He said he was sorry for how everything went down and that he still to this day thinks I’m the love of his life.

I won’t respond, but instead I want to share... I found these pictures Owen Filion took of me while my ex was at work. I remember having to think of a lie because I would have to tell my ex everything about my day 🙄

Even getting the pictures back, trying to look at them felt like I was doing something bad. If he found out, I would have been accused of ridiculous things. For example this one night I went out dancing with his brothers girlfriend and the fog machine at the club got my nose worked up. I was blowing my nose on the ride home and just dropped a couple tissues while driving... he saw the tissues when I got home and accused me of giving a stranger head! Just fucking cruel the shit he would say and do.

My passion for modeling and photography was a disgust to my ex. If I wanted to do the things I loved (networking with creative people,) I would have to sneak around and eventually anything would wind up in an argument. I was not allowed to be my absolute self - so I had to choose.

I no longer have to listen to how my art is trashy and stupid. Or that I'M trashy and stupid.

I CAN DO WHAT I WANT & I will never give up my creative passion for anyone! If they claim they love you, then they would support you - not hurt you.