life update, fluff status

November was fairly rough for me, december was worse, january was better but i'm heading downhill again. I'm not sick as far as i know, but I'm not all well, either. 

I'm eating better and exercising more. I'm currently at the worst shape I've been all my life. 310lb (140kg) and struggling to run in place for 2 minutes. It's been harder and harder for me to leave the apartment. I like hiding away from the world in my cozy lil room here where it's safe. I've been considering seeing a psychotherapist about my stupid cat brain problems, maybe I can get some help with them. Maybe I can get some paper saying I have a thing or two and apply for housing benefit, idk. I don't want to go into detail in public about that yet, maybe later. At least I'm not physically sick atm, just achy af. I'm learning to cook more meals at home and infusing more vegetables into everything. Been craving soda and cigarettes again so badly lately. I haven't had a smoke since 2009. Soda's not deadly but it's still really bad for you and really unhelpful for losing weight. I have a fair amount of money saved atm, so i'm not terribly worried about what my taxes will look like. I may be able to get into a tiny cozy place with my brother. I'd really like that. He's busy most of the time so I'd have the place mostly to myself. It's a stone's throw away from one of the places I grew up, too. 

Sorry for the brick of text, I don't know how to chop that paragraph up. 

Moving forward, I have some ideas for this patreon I'd like to pursue. I thought maybe some kind of 4chan style game would be pretty great. I don't have a premise yet, but I'd like to do something with horror. I was inspired to make a horror game by weaver's ruby quest years ago but I haven't made that game yet. I'd play around with perspective and how we understand events as they happen, and how that understanding changes so radically depending on our opinion of things. It'd also feature a cute slim lady bunny. I may share some design stuff for this game as part of patreon content if you guys would like that. 

That's all i have at the moment. Thank you so much for supporting me. It really does help.