insomniac olympics

can't sleep must post..

these are

pages of sketchbook

blog:

don't think i've overshared this month yet.. which is what i said i'd do for $3 so here goes: i haven't had a full night's sleep in weeks. the last time must have been in early december. ever since the episode, i've been averaging 4-6 hours, generally closer to 4. on top of that every day i've been drawing about 10-12 hours, then manically posting to patreon because i can't sleep. when i'm too tired to draw or post anymore i go to bed and stare at the ceiling for a few hours. at this point the bags under my eyes have bags under their eyes. i physically get a jumpscare when i turn on the bathroom light. so far i've taken 3 days off in 2025, and each time it was only because a friend physically dragged me away from my workstation. 24/sven is a funny nickname but it also kind of isn't a joke.. strangely enough i don't really feel burnt out. the OC stuff is rejuvenating even if i'm still sitting at my workbench while i'm doing it..

i've entered this mode where i simply cannot do anything other than work. if i can't physically draw anymore, i'm writing furaffinity journals or blogposts, and if i'm not doing that, i'm rearranging folders, updating post descriptions, etc. i can't turn it off. i just spent 30 minutes writing this horseshit for really no reason other than that i cannot for the life of me fall asleep, and if i can't rest i might as well do something productive.. i haven't watched a movie, read a news article, watched a youtube video, read a book, really had any sort of downtime whatsoever in weeks. sven is the only thing i do for entertainment. i physically do need to rest but i simply can't. and haven't. but that's quite enough oversharing for tonight..

ps.. pic 1 of the last sketchbook post was worth price of admission this month alone, trust me on that (the other two not so much). pinup still to come tho..