Content Warning: whiffs of [CNC] in the upcoming exclusive
Added 2024-10-22 19:08:43 +0000 UTCCNC is not allowed on Patreon so this will NOT be CNC but will brush up against it in delivery. It's really just [rough]
Hello lovelies,
I have had a metric fuckton of requests for [CNC] so I think I am going to brush up against it in the upcoming [Mort] audio for the end of the month. [Also for the record no one has asked me more than once and everyone has been immensely respectful so thx for that]
As an SA survivor, exploring [CNC] can be precarious so I reserve the right to change things up on you last minute [a right which I always have] but something about [me] playing [Doc] playing [Mort] feels like I have enough distance. Plus we're adding a layer of fantasy/mysticism. [Mort] is Death and Death can see into your soul - he knows what you desire beyond any shadow of a doubt.
FYI this is not me caving to pressure, this is something I want to explore. If anything, for myself.
[working outline for the next Mort audio - spoilers ahead]
The next Mort story is about a woman who is going to die and wants [just once in her life] to get fucked vigorously by a man who can't control himself. This isn't going to happen if her life proceeds to end in the manner it is meant to. Mort, in the middle of some sexual exploration himself, sees her last request before preparing to take her away and decides he would like to help her to fulfill this wish [he's been doing a lot of "experimentation" since we last saw him]. She is briefed [via a dream] and is told to vocally confirm consent before anything sexy happens. I will also incorporate some safe-word usage [perhaps via magic/telekinesis]. Throughout the course of the audio, the woman will fight back a bit and be overpowered until she [very suddenly] takes control of the situation. The audio ends with her dominating Death. She is not granted life again and does expire, but she goes out with a bang [ba-dum cha!]
thank you - I hope it's hot and fun. It should still be campy and a bit silly. We'll open November with some [worship] and/or [romance] to keep the balance :)
Comments
Doc, our darling! thank you for being so open with us and communicating to us parts of yourself. thank you for trusting us! I'm so glad that working with Quinn has helped healed parts of yourself because it's honestly the same for us too! your audios have done wonders for me and many others! I have always steered away from CNC themed books or audios because it can get pretty intense for myself and sometimes can trigger past trauma. but lately, I've slowly dabbled into the theme and explored it safely. I adore Mort and I love how campy your audios can get! thank you for sharing your idea with us and placing a CW, I'm actually really excited for this audio! bring on Mort/Death! 💜
mcxyp
2024-10-23 13:09:12 +0000 UTCThank you, dear drR, for this (the audio, the outline, all of this), and (I know you will but) please PLEASE take care of yourself for this one, ok? 💖
Margaret Peffy Margie Maggie
2024-10-23 02:11:24 +0000 UTCThank you for your multiple reassurances. We’re a very protective group. Warms my heart to hear about how this work is healing for you as I know how healing it’s been for me and many others. (If it helps to hear what someone else did, Naudio’s audio today was focused on CNC.)
Catherine
2024-10-23 00:41:42 +0000 UTCWell this theory just fully unlocked something in my brain about myself. Different topic but same principle.
siesta_maven
2024-10-23 00:36:18 +0000 UTCAs a mama, I wanna give you the biggest hug. As a SA survivor, I thank you for handling this delicately. While I like to escape with audios, this is something, like breeding, that is a yay in theory but absolutely not in reality. Thanks for the ability to explore these things safely. Looking forward to more Mort.
Analise
2024-10-22 23:51:40 +0000 UTCI saw this quote today by Anne Carson about stage plays. It was quoted in reference to reading dark things but it spoke to me on a really deep level, more so when I read this post. Being turned on by a thing that is also traumatizing for you and others sometimes feels, wrong? But the idea of taking back control and giving it up again, at MY discretion with [you] feels....healing in a way. I can totally understand why it's triggering for others, or you and respect (and will undoubtedly love) whatever the end product is. Thank you for trying and experimenting. *“There is a theory that watching unbearable stories about other people lost in grief and rage is good for you — may cleanse you of your darkness. Do you want to go down to the pits of yourself all alone? Not much. What if an actor could do it for you? Isn’t that why they are called actors? They act for you. You sacrifice them to action. And this sacrifice is a mode of deepest intimacy of you with your own life. Within it you watch yourself act out the present or possible organization of your nature. You can be aware of your own awareness of this nature as you never are at the moment of experience. The actor, by reiterating you, sacrifices a moment of his own life in order to give you a story of yours.”*
Spirited Cricket
2024-10-22 23:44:33 +0000 UTCWhat I appreciate about these posts is that it’s like a menu we get to watch you set. A sexual chefs tasting menu—with up to the minute changes and additions. (I’m hungry so food is on my mind.)
Kristen
2024-10-22 22:12:55 +0000 UTCso thoughtful of you Doc - I cannot wait to hear this!
Ermine
2024-10-22 22:09:42 +0000 UTCJust my maternal side stopping by to give virtual hugs and cookies, dear Doc. I’m awfully glad you feel able to approach broaching this. We love and support you and are thrilled with everything you bring to us!
Bama Angi
2024-10-22 21:43:19 +0000 UTCI always worry for you. Don’t know why - you’re a grown-ass man and a self-aware one at that. But even in a safe space like the beloved clinic it’s easy to get caught up in pushing limits or pleasing others or…. whatever our weak spot might be. Other VAs have talked about how doing this work has made them expand/explore their own sexuality and mental health. It’s not surprising so many of us have SA in our histories (did you see the announcement that all this DNA testing has uncovered that there’s a lot more incestuous births than people acknowledged and social workers/psychologists are throwing their hands in the air and screaming I Told You!) ANYway, my point is I want to say Good Boy in THE most platonic way for talking about the fact it happened, being protective of your mental health, and being brave enough to explore or work through/with the idea of consent. Sex is not therapy, not even sex in theory, but it can be therapeutic. I know it has been for many of us - dredging up some old anger, panic, sadness, … in a safe way and even maybe a fun way can really work miracles. Wishing all the miracles for you💜
Mare
2024-10-22 21:15:24 +0000 UTCBroaching her last desire in a dream, solidifying vocal consent, the switch, the check-in possibilities of magic/telekinesis…it’s a story that seems as much about safety as it is about pleasure [even with her impending demise]. Oof. Feelings. Appreciation. I think Mort is such a poignant ferryman for a brush with this theme, beyond his proverbial job description. For me, healing from SA trauma has at times felt something like trying to dominate a form of death, with one face or another. And this whole listening thing has been a part of that. So has the writing. Thank you for your care and for sharing your “if anything, for myself.” 💜 [Also, I love that Mort has been exploring. Good for that guy, too many hours at HQ]
caroscope
2024-10-22 20:44:58 +0000 UTC
