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I'm so sorry and ashamed, and desperate

Added 2021-01-26 17:53:55 +0000 UTC

That live session was a total failure. I'm so glad I was the only one to see that at the end... 🙈

And I can only blame myself : I planned everything three days ago now, I tested it 4 times with each time a new combination of picture and sound, everything was working.
And 1h before the live, I tried to install something, for the future lives, when I will be able to film them with my camera and not my Macbook anymore. But that messed up everything I planned. So when the live began, it was a black screen for you and for me 🤦‍♀️🤦‍♀️🤦‍♀️

So I had to create something new, I did it really fast when I saw the black screen, but I took time to open a live with my phone, to share the new link with you here on Patreon with editing the old post and create a new one, to... 15 minutes to do all of that. And I know you were not a lot who wanted to came to that live, so I waited 15min more in case you'll come (and you will be motivated enough to find the good link).

Again, I'm almost relieved that no one see that failure in live 😢

That's really the story of my life. I'm planning everything, to be sure that it's gonna be ok, that I can just live the moment when it's gonna happen, and at the last minute, I do one stupid thing which is messing everything up, and it's a failure.

I hate myself, I want to slap myself, I'm desperate. And you know me, my emotions are always high, so yes, I might be crying. Even if no one saw it, even if I erased everything so no one can see that, even if you were not a lot who might have been there. I don't care, I was so excited about it, I'm... So sorry.

I'm gonna work on things so the next live (for the end of the season 5 of The Expanse) will work. I hope you'll be there 😊