Four days into the new year, and I already have a newfound sense of self. Oddly enough, I received my period a week early. What a strange, peculiar thing, indeed. For those of you who are new, blood is my source of joy, inspiration, and creativity. I do not stray from its appearance, smell, taste...
2023-01-04 20:55:31 +0000 UTC
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How can I not capture this genius behavior? đđđđ
2023-01-03 17:26:01 +0000 UTC
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Super-hyped for these. I think Iâll get away with it, but I KNOW some dumbass is going to cry about how âoffensiveâ it is.
2023-01-01 19:34:56 +0000 UTC
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In all seriousness, itâs been a ride. I canât say it was the best year, but it was undoubtedly a fantastic one. I feel as if weâve all grown together as a community, and more than myselfâall Iâve ever wanted was to watch people connect.
I canât really say I know the right words...
2023-01-01 03:39:12 +0000 UTC
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Why the fuck am I like this? Um, not sure if people will even know if thatâs the intent, but I donât honestly care. Iâve been toying around with this idea for awhile, and Iâm not sure if Iâll be flagged for it (even though I donât think itâs that bad).
This isnât a politica...
2022-12-31 20:59:15 +0000 UTC
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Next month I fly to Georgia to film my first short film, Mother of Lost Things.
Paul, the director, and I had our first conversation over the phone about this character. Sheâs going to be earthly, yet, not? If that makes any sense. The wardrobe thus far is looking like a rough spun tunic...
2022-12-31 16:14:36 +0000 UTC
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This one is a fucking BANGER. I wonât be posting this till next week, but holy fuck this has become a fav. I truly have no idea what this creature is, nor the intent of what she does. All I know is, is that I was thinking of the drawing in Profondo Rosso and went from there!
2022-12-28 16:40:37 +0000 UTC
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I wonât be uploading these to social media. Iâve discovered something, too:
As Iâm sure yâall knowâiPhoneâs selfie camera sucks ass. The normal camera has been pretty bitchin lately, and what I mean is, Iâve been putting the timer on and using a flash. I know it doesnât sou...
2022-12-27 17:02:06 +0000 UTC
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Iâve decided Iâm going to cosplay her. Will it be easy? It depends.
Ultimately, that crown is whatâs stopping me. I think the bone structure, eyes, and nose are pretty close to mine. The outfit I can definitely make on my own. ButâŠthat CROWN.
So, if anyone knows any expert co...
2022-12-26 19:08:14 +0000 UTC
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Happy Holidays to you all. Not sure if many of you celebrate, but I hope you all have the best day.
Itâs not been the most festive holiday season, but Iâll regale the woe. What matters is that you all are here, and you all are alive, healthy, and in one piece. I havenât wished anyone...
2022-12-25 15:25:02 +0000 UTC
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STILL canât really make great use of my leg. Once the 29th rolls around, that will be the moment I can decide whether or not to take my movement a bit further.
Regardless, this one I based on vaginal STIs. The addition of the horns was unintentional, but frankly, it somehow works out qui...
2022-12-23 18:12:13 +0000 UTC
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Hey, gang. If youâre still here, thank you. To make a very long story long, Iâve unfortunately been dealing with not having any income, and fighting with the Hartford over sending my forms.
I think itâll sort itself out, but itâs life, and the quicker I can drum up moneyâthe ...
2022-12-20 23:10:56 +0000 UTC
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I guess at my core, Iâm a writer before an artist. Today is one of those days where Iâm just swimming in doubt. Sitting here before PT and Iâm thinking, âFuck me. Is there any purpose?â Iâm trying not to let doubt get the best of me. Thereâs a reason for all of it, and thereâs a r...
2022-12-12 20:00:18 +0000 UTC
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On their own, these are just so fucking delicious.
2022-12-10 01:50:22 +0000 UTC
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Okay, this was FUN! I have to tell you, the accident has forced me into doing more detailed, thorough work. This was done with the simplest tools: cotton balls, liquid latex, stage blood, and eyeshadow.
Maybe itâs just me, but do you find practical effects more realistic looking? Be ...
2022-12-09 23:41:00 +0000 UTC
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So, Iâm retiring the Paimon design. Most of you have been with me for a minute and need another gift. So, my question is:
What would YOU like? What is the best design that you want? Iâll leave this as an open forum and the one with the most votesâIâll add it as a Patreon gift!
2022-12-09 17:03:55 +0000 UTC
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I donât post enough of these. Reason why Iâm posting is because I want to emphasize just how intricate looks can be. I used a piece of duct tape to allow for a smooth surface on the face. Scar wax is unforgiving in the fact that it doesnât bond to the mouth, eyes, and nose as well as one wo...
2022-12-08 18:45:16 +0000 UTC
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Do we like darker or lighter more? They both look so goddamn good.
2022-12-07 01:15:51 +0000 UTC
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God fucking damn it. Between duct-taping my mouth shut and layering it with scar wax, and trying to get my contact in for over fifteen minutesâthis one was a bitch.
This is made completely out of scar wax. Since I still canât really fully act, Iâve been focusing on eyes and headshots....
2022-12-06 22:31:49 +0000 UTC
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TUTORIALS ARE BACK BABY!!!!! Enjoy!
2022-12-05 15:55:38 +0000 UTC
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You knew it was coming! I couldnât resist the urge to capitalize on some good ol-fashioned choking to death with a crutch. For being semi-handicapped at the moment, I did pretty well. The SFX is superb, in my opinion, and Iâm actually shocked this is what came out of it.
I put most of ...
2022-12-04 22:35:17 +0000 UTC
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Prepare yourselfââSlothâ is coming. đ„ Gonna be giving some head to my crutch đđđ«Ąâ„ïž
2022-12-04 18:07:41 +0000 UTC
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GUYS THEY WANT ME TO START WALKING! Iâm about to cry!!!!!!!!!!! This is the x-ray of my knee. So, basically, I have three screws running laterally across the tibia. I found out, too, that they performed a menisectomy. That basically means they shaved and cleaned up some minor damage I suffered ...
2022-12-01 21:28:21 +0000 UTC
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Alright, Iâm still here. I donât know how the fuck yâall have stuck by me here, but shit if I ainât grateful.
If youâre new here, then you may not have heard; last year, I started in Vale of Pnathâs video for their new record. This was directed by Scott Hansen. There was a mess...
2022-11-29 17:25:32 +0000 UTC
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Thatâs a shitload of iodine. I lowkey thought I had gangrene, but realized it was iodine.
Welp. It looks like three incisionsâŠI think? Iâm amazed at how non-invasive it was.
2022-11-26 17:19:40 +0000 UTC
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Yesterday was a very hard day for me. For whatever reason, I was on the verge of a panic attack and felt like everything I worked hard for was going to fall apart. Contrary to the soul-searching badass you sometimes seeâI can be very self-sabotaging. I go through bouts of thinking Iâm not tha...
2022-11-26 14:18:41 +0000 UTC
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Obviously, this was the day before yesterday, but I wanted to explain a little bit better what my procedure was.
First, the team at St. Thomas medical were awesome. They were professional, courteous, kind, and had me in and out. They injected a nerve block into my right thigh. I guess ther...
2022-11-25 16:07:14 +0000 UTC
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Needless to say, I love yâall very much. I would not be here without yâall. I mean that.
2022-11-24 17:31:46 +0000 UTC
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I starved myself down to a bone. I was a wreck mentally, emotionally, and physically. I weighed 138 pounds and stopped having a period. This man had made me into someone I really didnât like.
Did I learn? No. No, I didnât. In fact, I had Fallin *in love* with a guy who was beautiful, g...
2022-11-22 01:37:57 +0000 UTC
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Let me tell you a story.
This was me circa 2019. Iâve written many stories about my previous self. I think most know my tumultuous affairs with loving the wrong people, struggling with mental health, and writing poems about men that couldnât love me. I was going through Google Photos a...
2022-11-21 22:57:04 +0000 UTC
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